31 Dec 08

-goodbye 2008!

-Hello 2009!

-Recap of 2008...

-Graduated College with a 3.1 GPA...pretty solid, solid...

-Spent 4 months in TX with Scott...that was a great experience for me.

-I...grew up...for lack of a better term.  I moved into my own apartment, bought my first car, and am truly independent for the first time.

-I moved into a stable job at Arby's, which is great for me to have that stability...at least for now.

-I'm back to my mac now...after a hiatus for most of the year...Leopard has saved me...:)

-I also started Dating Kristyn, and it's been a little over 2 months.  It's been great!  If I can not move too fast with her, She's a keeper for sure!

-This year has been great...goals for next year:

-they are personal...lol...:)

-Have a great 2009..you!

28 DEC 08

-okay...Blogging every day is my new years resolution...

-Releasing myself and my loved ones from the vice of hate is also on that list

-I can't do it by myself, but the Lord will help me.  I don't want bad relationships with people, and I hope I can find a way I can be effective at my job while caring about the people on more than a personal level.

-It's been so long that I haven't blogged about Kristyn yet...  We've been together for 2 months now.

-She's amazing, she compliments my life, she makes me a better person and I'm just not the same when we're not together

-See future wife posts before...

-Jay and Scott are coming home soon...January...I can't wait for real!

-Trans-siberian Orchestra Concert with KK on Sunday.  How can I not be excited about that?

-Blogging everyday begins...today...

-Also, Kristyn and I decided we were going to try to be healthier...wish us luck

-Seriously, Blogging everyday...

-ice Skating tommorow...Scared?  yes...but KK's got my back!

Bibical thought for the day:

-Forgiveness is most Christ-like when it is given to the undeserving  

"Philemon"

16 Sep 08

- So I suck at updating...I suck at staying on top of things, and sometimes just suck at getting things done...I think it's because I'm in pandora and I'm never productive in pandora...

-It may be this weekend I am moving!  exciting for sure!

-How can I afford it?  I'm not sure yet, I know more this week

-I may be getting promoted here soon, and I really want to because I need the money and I want the responsibility...I need more permanent in my life...

-I hope Future Wife is doing allright...and I miss her.  I don't like looking at girls because usually I can't get them anyway, plus most are shallow and don't understand what I'm all about

-I can't regress into myself like this...retract that last part of that last statement.

-I am JUST like Dr. House...I don't like to deal with things and put them off as long as I can, I shut down when things become too hard to deal with, I'm scared of being vulnerable.  I make jokes about every aspect of my personality because I'm afraid of being made fun of, and it keeps people at a distance.  I like people at a distance because then I have control over when they know things about me.  I lie to myself about things I shouldn't.  I am scared of commitment because I've not seen a good example of it in my family.  I like being by myself because then I have complete control over the situation.  I need to be in control of situations because I don't trust other people to be in control, My leg hurts almost every day.  I like knowing as much as I can about stuff just so i can be more intelligent than my peers.  I act with reason over emotion, and usually am able to make decisions rationally...and with age, I seem to be digressing further backwards.

-the mac is great!

-iTunes hates me I think

-Am I doing what I need to be doing to teach? I don't know

-I'm really doubting that a Masters of Arts in Teaching is the degree for me...standby on that

-I WANT TO BLOG MORE...why can't I take 5 minutes and do this?  idk

08 Sep 08

-So I need money...really quickly...

-i found out I'm not making assistant's pay right off the bat. I need to be making 25k a year at least! there's no reason I can't be making this. They have one week, or I'm finding something else.

-money equals stress equals early bedtime

-I'm moving on the 27th if I can come up with 800 dollars.

7 Sept 08

-well...last night was awesome, seeing all my old friends, and meeting some new ones...I love Bluff

-I bought my baby...24 inch iMac...I think it'll serve itself well

-I may be in debt all year because of this, however, it is worth it, because I missed being on a mac machine...I missed Leopard...

-I need to call Mike and get a copy of XP

-so I'm 3500 hundred in debt to start the year...and I'm okay with that

-but now I can open Microsoft office documents with no problem

-So who cares about money, because there's no amount of money that can buy this kind of happiness?

friday

-So I haven't updated in almost a week...so much for blogging every day

-I need to get on school work, but man is it tough to do so

-I'm in Indiana, and I can't wait for Ohio tommorow

-Driving 1024 miles in one day sucks...any way you do it, still sucks

-so this weekend will be really crazy for me, seeing all my friends and family again...but man, too many things to juggle

-If I said we should do something this weekend and we don't get the time to, I'm really sorry, but I'm back for good now (at least for a while), so I'll make time for you when I can. Because you really mean a lot to me

-Sometimes I wish Future wife would come and take me away from this...life...I feel as though I am living on borrowed space...I don't have a place of my own, I don't have my career yet, I feel like I'm just trying to kill time until I'm 25 and start teaching

-I was linked to a job offer in Pasadena...50k a year...do they know that I'm not licensed yet?

-I want to be licensed to teach..and start teaching...today

-Is Liberty right for me? Is getting a MAT going to make me marketable as a music educator? I guess I try the grad school all over again...maybe BGSU? maybe Toledo? I guess it's time to start school applications all over again...

-blogging, schoolwork, and my reviews

-The above are three things that get overlooked by me all the time...

-Future wife, can you promise me that you'll create no drama and that we'll never get divorced? thanks!

-I am going to start talking to Future wife by that name until i can replace that with another name.

weekend adventures

-So i surely didn't update the last couple of days...or at least yesterday, but the day before was long enough that it should suffice

-So Hurricane Gustav apparently missed the memo on how these last couple of days in TX were supposed to go. Monday was packing and car maintenance day, Tuesday was packing, promoting Scott and partying with him, cashing my pay check, cancelling my bank account and rolling out, then leaving Wednesday morning

-Due To Gustav, there are more variables. Scott's on two hour recall now, which means if they need him, he'll be rolling out to Louisana to help out. And he could leave at any time now, but most likely it'll be tommorow evening maybe, or Tuesday. SHOULD HE ROLL OUT, then my leaving time moves from Wednesday morning, to Tuesday afternoon, and making it a two-day trip home. This would also mean I would take a more northern route to miss the storm, because I really don't want to drive in rain coming home...

-I am still scheduled to arrive in Pandora on Friday

-This week, i didn't do so well on my homework assignments for school...nothing I can't overcome, but I need to do better than that...and so I shall

-we played Terra Vista and Clear Creek one last time before I leave...they are nice courses and I hope to see them again in the future

-I honestly will miss TX, and that's crazy to think that in 4 months you can develop such a love for a place that at the same time, doesn't feel like home

-Maybe I'll come back to TX one day, most likely after I've got a girl to move with me and a degree

-Is a MAT degree really the right path for my Master's? i don't know really...and I don't think it is, but I'm scared to talk to someone and have them tell me that it isn't

-one of these days, I'll get into shape...or at least start to...I promise

-today I almost went the whole day without thinking about you know who...(see previous blog)

-but I failed miserably when I see couples in public where the guy is a jerk and treats the girl poorly, yet because he's good looking, she stays, blah blah blah you know how this story goes

-now I'm thinking about that...so I need to go and relax before it really makes me upset.

quick update

-I noticed I mentioned in an earlier blog that if the REdeem team took gold, I would say that you don't need a dominant inside presence to win basketball games...

-You don't need an inside presence to win basketball games...just have the 5 greatest athletes of our time on your team in the starting lineup...that's how you win...

sorry this is a few days late, but I wanted to stay true to my word

Friday 30 Aug 08

-So we played golf today, and for about nine holes, I played well...even had a birdie and some nice pars, but imploded after a few holes...I need to find a way to stay interested and energized throughout the round the whole time

-I always believed that love would find me...that looking for my true love would be pointless because when God wants me to be in that relationship, He'll make it happen...after 22 years of that thought...I'm starting to lose grip of that belief. I hope that working at the church will center my focus and give me more resolve to wait for her

-Tommorow we're playing at a country Club In Austin...should be sweet...I'll be taking lots of piuctures like a tourist

-Will I ever truly figure out golf? I hope so...at least where I can become a 10 handicap...that's all I want...I need to practice my chips for real and get the feel for what I'm doing...when I own a house, I'm puting in a putting green so I can practice. So Future Wife, you know what to expect

-I pray for my future wife, I hope she's doing fine and I wish she's come find me...that'd be nice

-I wonder who she is...Mrs. Future wife...what's she doing now? does she know I'm thinking about her? Does she know that I'm making decisions now that will affect her when i don't even know her yet (or do I?) every day I wake up feeling like I'm going to meet her...how long do I have to wait? I already know she's worth waiting for, and I'll wait til whenever she comes along

-The last comment reminds me of Rebecca St. james, which reminds me of high school, which saddens me

-So many better decisions could have been made if I just could have allowed myself to make them

-Even today I can make decisions to impact my future...so why don't I?

-I really can't stop thinking about her...and I don't even know who I'm thinking about!

-I am afraid to talk to any girl I met for the first time because I'm afraid she'll see that I'm trying to see if we have a future together, not trying to see if I can 'hit it and quit it'...that would shock almost all women that I actually want to get to know them and care for them as opposed to find new and interesting ways to get them into my pants

-I'm going to miss the girls I work with in Texas

-All that it takes for me to look better in the eyes of a girl is to lower the standards of the guys around me...thanks TX

-Women confuse and frustrate me sometimes...like all the girls who say that Michael Phelps is OMG SO HOT! it's like...no, you only like him for the success and the gold medals...he doesn't talk very well, he has a lanky disproportioned body, and frankly, all his interviews were really boring, yes he's cut but he wouldn't have any time for you anyway since he trains 5 hours a day.

-I'm probably just bitter because I have a lot to offer but it never seems to get me very far with the ladies

-I joke about it all the time, but I am holding out the hope that my future wife will appreciate my humor and my willingness to put her first, and I hope I don't become too calisis before that time to treat her how she deserves

-Are you, the reader, my future wife? if so...let's talk...

-At the core, I don't think MOST woman want a guy who wants to love and care for them and put them first, and I don't know why that is...maybe because they are afraid they are not good enough to deserve that...I don't know

-I'm really harping on this future love thing tonight aren't I?

-Ladies, if you want a good guy, look who's around you...if you're telling your friends that you can't find a good guy and/or have a guy that you vent to all the time, he's the one you should be with.

-I would trade everything I have to have the story they wrote for Jim and Pam, and I'm a loser for saying that

8/28/2008

-So I did not blog yesterday...because I closed and when I got off of work...I was too tired...sorry if you are one of the zero people I'm sure read this...but I'm trying to blog everyday, so I'm ashamed of myself

-today was my last day at McDonalds...and that is awesome. I am really excited to take on a higher role in Arby's while I do my masters...I think it'll be great, I'm excited to see everyone

-I really feel like Bluffton wants me back...and that's how I know it's home, no matter what

-Should I play with the concert band this year? I'm sure Boehm would let me do so.

-I want Camerata to perform at my church that I'm working at. I think it'd be great for the congregation to hear.

-One Sunday, I need to preach...very much so

-I need to finish these reviews, why am I not working music in the video game industry? I don't know...that'd be my dream job for real. I want to teach kids and perform that service...but I love doing reviews and would love to write reviews and stuff like that in Magazines. If you have a magazine and want some sweet insights, call me up!

-how do I find these jobs? any ideas?

-I'm really sad that I'll never get that dream job at home...but maybe, I'm going to keep my eyes and ears open. If you head anything sweet...let me know!

tuesday

-I have two more days at McDonalds...one more if I can play my cards right and stay late tommorow...I can't wait!

-I will miss some people there...but I miss my people back home as well

-I want to play ultimate

-I miss lukes

-Finally put up all the pictures from San Antonio on facebook, they are sweet

-I really should start my homework

-Chuck and Larry is a great movie!

-I am going to miss having a sonic right down the street...until they build one in Bluffton

-I will drive to Van Wert for Sonic...seriously

-these thoughts are really short tonight...must be getting close to bedtime!

-Scott's getting promoted next week! I am really excited that I can be there to pin the new rank on him...sweet!

-FFIV is one tough game! for real!

-I will finish my FFVII part 2, the compliation soon...sometime...maybe...

monday

-I worked today....8am-5p and realized I have three days left at mcDonalds...and I really can't wait. people there are stressed all the time and they will miss me greatly

-I never really know the affect i have on people, but I love seeing it at random times

-i miss bluffton...only 8 more days in texas...that is crazy!

-the question is, what is kevo going to do with his life? I don't know. I think some plans I was thinking about making when i get back may not be good plans. But I don't know.,..everythign changes once i get into Ohio again.

-Today began my first day of 16 weeks of trying to live a healthier life. this means everything, physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual healthy. Today is day one

-I can't wait to be a teacher...though the task is a little daunting and I have doubts sometimes that I'll be good, but i will succeed, because I can not fail

-I broke another club here, this time it was my old driver...man...at this rate I'll have no clubs!

-I can't wait to shoot in the 80's at Bluffton when i get back.

San Antonio

- So San Antonio is really sweet...got to see the AT&T Center and the Alamo dome. Got to party til 3am on the riverwalk and see the city. We went to six flags and rode it up there! it was awesome

-Because of this, Jagger is my new best friend...and my own worst enemy

-bar chicks are the worst kind of chick...because I can't get them...lol

-I finished my first week of classes....and they are good for me, forcing me to be academically responsible. I can't wait to teach, for real

-14 days from today, I'll be working as an assistant at arby's, and I honestly feel good about it. I mean, it's solid pay, good job, GREAT people, and I know that I can make an immediate impact there, so i'm excited

-my golf swing is so inconsistant, and I need a new set of clubs...at least a driver

-I can't wait to play bluffton's golf course...tell me I can't break 80 there...just tell me

-guitar lesson time slots are still available if you're interested! 10 dollars a week is a GREAT price!

-I can't wait to have dinner with pastor Eric when i get back.

-my stomach hurts from dinners in SA, hope I don't have salmonellcoucis!

-the above term is NOT spelled correctly, however, is spelled phonetically

-I think I will miss texas...I know I will, but I can't wait to get back to Bluff

-Phelps told me he's Considering coming back...that'd be awesome!

-Things will be different this time around in the Bluff, I am considering buying a house. If I can get a good deal on one, why not?

-i need to sleep more, but then again, who doesn't?

-Redeem team won the gold and that my friends, is sweet

thursday 8/21/2008

- So I love Final Fantasy games...I grew up on them, and they make me feel closer to my family and friends who love them...plus I like to pretend that I live in a world such as those...simple and easy to manage...take sword, kill bad guy, get girl...it's really so simple.

-I am currently playing FFVII, crisis core and FFIV...and they are sweet

-I've been doing reviews of Final Fantasy games on youtube...
http://www.youtube.com/kevo4us and I love those...one day I will make a DVD and if you want it in advance, I'll sign it for you! If I have great ideas, i have to document them forever, so people who come after me can see my ideas.

-I miss Bluffton and it's only 2.5 weeks til I'm home...can't believe it'll be here before I know it

-I have my old job back with a promotion and some OT potential, and the church is going to hire me back as well...so I'm excited for the cash flow which will surely lead to a new mac purchase (so I can FINALLY GET OFF WINDOWS...lol, and by off, I mean dual booting mac and windows)...24inch iMac is the one for me...and at around 2000 dollars...I may not eat but at least I'll be happy

-I am teaching guitar lessons when i get back into the area...so if you have 10 dollars a week and want to learn guitar...come see me!

-What am I going to do with relationships? I don't know. Is it sad that I try my best not to think about them? I have always known that when God has my soulmate ready for me to meet...I will know it. What if I'm not listening or what if I can't hear? I don't know, but God does and that's great because I am sick and tired of thinking and wishing and trying to figure out who I will spend my life with.

-I have a great personality and a neat smile...or so I'm told, by the true.com lady...:)

-I really want the Redeem team to win the gold...so bad!

-only one more week at McDonald's...:), then it's back to Arby's...

First Blog

hey all...this is my first blog. I'm not really sure what drove me to starting a blog, but here are some random facts that I learned today...

-I overslept today...I was supposed to work at 11am, and I slept in until 11:35am, so I got ready and went in at 12, trying to rehearse what I needed to say to avoid getting into trouble. Well when I got there, my boss didn't say anything to me, and I know she knew I was late. I was let down because I had worked so hard on saying the right things that I felt I wasted my short morning. is this a good thing or bad thing?

-I've been living in Texas for 4 months, though I am moving back home two weeks from today. It's surreal to think my time is Texas is coming to an end, but It's time to go home.

-Texas taught me a lot of things. like how much i miss playing video games and how much of a stress reliever they can be. How much I miss my family, and miss my friends. And also how I should tell my friends and family how much they mean to me more than I currently do...which is never...I'm working on it.

-I want to review videogames...it's fun to do...check out my reviews on youtube...search the username, Kevo4us.

-I started my first class in my master's program on monday...Educational Psychology...woo! and boy is it a bunch of busy work...I mean, the good kind because it's preparing me to become a better teacher, but still busywork

-this is the second year for the Clash of the Farmer's Fantasy Football League. This year my brother Jay started it...I have both Ddarren McFaden and Adrian Peterson...and I'm taking the gold.

-I love the olympics...very much, and If I ever met Shawn Johnson, I would have to tell her that she's the most beautiful 16 year old ever...but that's weird for a 22 year old guy to say, but I wouldn't care because she needs to hear it.

-I want the Redeem Team to win the gold and if they do, I will write on this blog that I was wrong when i said we couldn't do it with an inside presence...maybe you don't need an inside presence when you have all around athletic types at every position, three players deep.

-I love theescapist.org...too much

-Demetri Martin is a genius, though he knows that...the man freaking went to Yale, then to New York School of Law.

-McDonald's is not the best place to work...ever...avoid fast food whenever possible, but if you must work it, make the best of it.

-one day, I will have a 10 or below handicap...one day...if I can learn to putt...

-I need to teach Music, being away from it for a few months made me realize even more than this is what I need to do...so let's go out and make it happen kevo...

-Liberty University seems to be a great place to get a Masters of Art in Teaching degree...I hope this remains true.

-I miss playing four square and intramural volleyball.

-what will the music department at Bluffton university be like without me there? I don't know really...I guess the verdict's still out on that one...

-I really hope I can keep in contact with all my bluffton people, esspecially the senior class I graduated with. they are the sweetest people ever...fact

-Tim Yoder can beat Micheal Phelps in the 200m fly...and it wouldn't even be a race.