Friday 30 Aug 08

-So we played golf today, and for about nine holes, I played well...even had a birdie and some nice pars, but imploded after a few holes...I need to find a way to stay interested and energized throughout the round the whole time

-I always believed that love would find me...that looking for my true love would be pointless because when God wants me to be in that relationship, He'll make it happen...after 22 years of that thought...I'm starting to lose grip of that belief. I hope that working at the church will center my focus and give me more resolve to wait for her

-Tommorow we're playing at a country Club In Austin...should be sweet...I'll be taking lots of piuctures like a tourist

-Will I ever truly figure out golf? I hope so...at least where I can become a 10 handicap...that's all I want...I need to practice my chips for real and get the feel for what I'm doing...when I own a house, I'm puting in a putting green so I can practice. So Future Wife, you know what to expect

-I pray for my future wife, I hope she's doing fine and I wish she's come find me...that'd be nice

-I wonder who she is...Mrs. Future wife...what's she doing now? does she know I'm thinking about her? Does she know that I'm making decisions now that will affect her when i don't even know her yet (or do I?) every day I wake up feeling like I'm going to meet her...how long do I have to wait? I already know she's worth waiting for, and I'll wait til whenever she comes along

-The last comment reminds me of Rebecca St. james, which reminds me of high school, which saddens me

-So many better decisions could have been made if I just could have allowed myself to make them

-Even today I can make decisions to impact my future...so why don't I?

-I really can't stop thinking about her...and I don't even know who I'm thinking about!

-I am afraid to talk to any girl I met for the first time because I'm afraid she'll see that I'm trying to see if we have a future together, not trying to see if I can 'hit it and quit it'...that would shock almost all women that I actually want to get to know them and care for them as opposed to find new and interesting ways to get them into my pants

-I'm going to miss the girls I work with in Texas

-All that it takes for me to look better in the eyes of a girl is to lower the standards of the guys around me...thanks TX

-Women confuse and frustrate me sometimes...like all the girls who say that Michael Phelps is OMG SO HOT! it's like...no, you only like him for the success and the gold medals...he doesn't talk very well, he has a lanky disproportioned body, and frankly, all his interviews were really boring, yes he's cut but he wouldn't have any time for you anyway since he trains 5 hours a day.

-I'm probably just bitter because I have a lot to offer but it never seems to get me very far with the ladies

-I joke about it all the time, but I am holding out the hope that my future wife will appreciate my humor and my willingness to put her first, and I hope I don't become too calisis before that time to treat her how she deserves

-Are you, the reader, my future wife? if so...let's talk...

-At the core, I don't think MOST woman want a guy who wants to love and care for them and put them first, and I don't know why that is...maybe because they are afraid they are not good enough to deserve that...I don't know

-I'm really harping on this future love thing tonight aren't I?

-Ladies, if you want a good guy, look who's around you...if you're telling your friends that you can't find a good guy and/or have a guy that you vent to all the time, he's the one you should be with.

-I would trade everything I have to have the story they wrote for Jim and Pam, and I'm a loser for saying that